TFAN, Part 32....The End

Title: The Fight About Nothing
Author: aquariuslover
Pairing: KyuWook
Rating: R
Genre: Friendship, Love
Beta: unicornsinger


Summary: This is a completely fictional tale about the thin line between love and friendship, and how easily that line can become blurred.



TFAN Chapters

Chapter 32

Kyuhyun flung open the door leading to the roof of the hospital, and he stormed out. He immediately bent over, placing his hands on his knees, gasping for air. “It’s like every arrogant choice I ever made is playing back for me in slow motion in my head. I wish to God that Ryeowook had never kissed me.”


Yunho, who followed behind him, shut the door, closing them off from the rest of the hospital, from the rest of the world. “Just calm down.”

“What my dad must think of me. How it must wound his heart to have a son such as me,” Kyuhyun said, trying to calm his breathing and his racing heart down.

“Kyuhyun, just calm down and tell me what happened,” Yunho instructed, walking up to the distressed man and placing a comforting hand on his back.

Kyuhyun broke away from Yunho and started pacing the roof, swinging his hands back and forth. “Well, let’s see, my parents, Eunhyuk, and Heechul all know. My sister, too - I don’t need to confirm anything for her, she knows. I can just imagine the little talks her and mom have had about it. There is probably a whole other group of people who know that I don’t even know about. Hey, I almost forgot you know, too.”

Yunho watched as Kyuhyun walked to the ledge. “What are you thinking?” He asked, slowly approaching the younger man cautiously.

“I am thinking how big this world is. How stupid is it that who I love can be such a big deal? I mean, it’s just stupid,” Kyuhyun said disgustedly as he stared off at the horizon.

“I am sorry you have to go through this,” Yunho told him, walking up next to Kyuhyun and taking his hand.

Kyuhyun looked down at Yunho’s hand that had a firm grasp on him. “Afraid I will jump?”

“The thought might have crossed my mind.”

“Should we jump together?” Kyuhyun asked bitterly, his disillusionment weighing heavily upon him.

“We’re not jumpers. I would disappoint too many people, and you would break Ryeowook’s heart,” Yunho told him, wisely tapping into the best part of Kyuhyun.

Tears welled up in Kyuhyun’s eyes as he let go of Yunho’s hand and walked away from the ledge and sat down on the roof. “You play dirty.”

“Only when broken-hearted boys are playing too close to the edge,” Yunho said, still at the ledge, looking out into the distance.

“If somebody had told me a year ago that I would be in this predicament, I would have laughed at them and asked them what kind of drugs they were smoking. I never knew I could hate myself so much,” Kyuhyun sighed, dwelling in his own misery.

“I should be angry at you for not warning me about Heechul. It’s always so pleasant when he’s out for blood and catches you off guard. I think I have removed most of the claws from my back,” Yunho told him sarcastically, in an attempt to distract Kyuhyun from his self-loathing.

“Why was he mad at you?” Kyuhyun asked startled, looking up at the other man as he crossed his legs in front of him.

“Well, because my not informing him of your dalliance with Ryeowook was all about him, you see. It was a direct betrayal.”

“He was mad about it? I didn’t know that he was mad. I mean he was mad, but I thought it was because I was lying to him. I always thought he would be the open-minded member,” Kyuhyun confessed, watching Yunho stare off into the distance.

Yunho turned around, trying to hide his laughter. “He’s not mad at you and Ryeowook…because you love each other. He’s mad that nobody told him…he wants to help protect you guys.”

“If his way of protecting me includes his big old mouth being overheard by my mother, then I will pass,” Kyuhyun said, rubbing his face at the awful memory.

Yunho laughed at the agitated younger man. “Probably not the way you wanted your mom to find out.”

“I never wanted her to find out. Never! Then she told my dad, who is, like, half-dead? I mean, seriously, is that something you should be telling a half-dead person?”

“Your dad looked good to me.” Yunho turned back around to look out over the ledge and asked in soft voice, “So, are you going to tell me how your parents handled it, or do you want me to surmise?”

Kyuhyun took a deep breath. “Ryeowook said I should be happy with their response. Well, he was ‘til my mom cornered him, and he turned purple and made up some excuse about having to record right that second. I’ve never seen him move that fast.”

“Happy?” Yunho asked, the confusion evident in his voice.

“He thought I should be happy, because my mother was being so understanding. Whatever, it totally creeped me out.”

“She was understanding?”

“Hyung, lets never speak of this; it’s humiliating,” Kyuhyun whined.

“Kyuhyun, tell me now,” Yunho told him in the same tone he must have used on Changmin a million times.

“She said she had always suspected it…that I was a big, gay fairy. Okay she didn’t actually call me a big, gay fairy, but same thing. She went on about how it’s okay, and nothing will ever make her stop loving me…blah blah blah. It was like some horrible nightmare, but not as bad as how dad handled it.”

“Go on.”

“He admits that no man wants a homosexual as a son. He made it clear that he never wants details. Really? I mean like I’d ever go up to him and say, ‘Hey dad, me and Ryeowook broke the bed last night. How was your night?’ I mean seriously, what the hell?”

“Kyuhyun! You are going off track,” Yunho told the younger man, exasperated.

“He basically told me that he always knew I was strange, but he liked me that way. He loves me, and nothing will ever change that. He would approve…how can I ask him to approve? When I found out he was in that wreck, my heart stopped. I mean just the thought I could have easily inflicted that kind of damage,” Kyuhyun paused, trying to collect himself. Yunho just continued to face away from him, waiting for him to continue.

“If we had continued on our plan to be together and we were found out by the public... can you imagine the harm that would have been done to him? He’s a proud, good man. He’s upstanding in both the community and the church. All of his colleagues, former students, and current students love and respect him. I think about the shame I could bring on him.. - ”

“When I was dying and the only way to save me was to ruin my voice…he wouldn’t let them. He made them find another way. He did all that for my voice, for my career…because he knew it was my dream.” Kyuhyun stopped wiping the tears from his face. “How can I so easily risk my dream, when he risked everything so I could live it?”

“So I am going to stick to my decision to only be friends with Ryeowook, no matter how much it hurts me. Ryeowook understands, and he’s helping me to make them all believe it was nothing. But it wasn’t though…it was everything. I know it had to hurt Ryeowook so much, but he just promised his eternal friendship and stayed by my side.” Kyuhyun stopped talking and tried to control his emotions.

“I am making the right choice? It’s always been the right decision. Right?” Kyuhyun asked after collecting himself.

“Hyung?” Kyuhyun asked again when Yunho didn’t answer him, but continued to stare off into the distant horizon.

“One cold winter’s day, my father gave me a choice. If I chose correctly, I could continue being his son, and if I made the wrong choice in his eyes…he would wash his hands of me forever.” Yunho began in a cold tone devoid of emotion.

“I love my father, and my greatest desire has always been to make him proud. My father is a man of his word, and he never says anything lightly. People always went on about how hard we worked in Dong Bang Shin Ki, but it was nothing compared to what I suffered as a trainee. I slept under bridges, I traveled hours a day, squeezing in school and training, and there were times I felt so tired that only my determination willed me on. See, I was determined to be the best at school and the best trainee I could be. Disappointing him is not an option. He did not approve of my career path, but as long as I was the best, it could be tolerated.”

Kyuhyun scrambled to his feet and went up to the older man. “What choice did he give you?”

Yunho turned to look at Kyuhyun, his face a roadmap of misery. “I could cast my love away and continue to have my family and to protect those I love…or I could keep the one I love and risk my ruin and the ruin of everybody dear to me.”

Kyuhyun turned away quickly, unable to bear looking at the man. “It’s the right choice though, right?”

“Kyuhyun, I told you once there wasn’t a right choice. I wasn’t lying. I know the choice I made, that I always knew I would end up making in the end…but it doesn’t mean you have to.”

“Hyung, but I can’t,” Kyuhyun said, looking back at him, refusing to believe in hope.

“You have what appears to be a wonderful family that supports you and loves you without conditions. When you told Ryeowook that you couldn’t be together, he didn’t break into pieces, curse you, or vow to make your life a living hell. He promised eternal friendship and did what he could to help you.”

“What are you saying?” Kyuhyun asked as he felt the warmth of hope fighting to return.

“I am saying this rooftop is only big enough for one martyr, and I called it first,” Yunho told the younger man, his compassion so easily felt that Kyuhyun just beamed up at him, as hope was born anew.

“Well, you know it really isn’t my style,” Kyuhyun said, grinning at the other man, his heart full of gratitude.

“I kind of noticed that about you,” Yunho told him with a warm smile.

“I gotta ask,” Kyuhyun said suddenly, grabbing Yunho by the arm.

“No, you really don’t,” Yunho told him sadly.

“If Jae and Yoochun weren’t the lovers, who - ” Kyuhyun stopped trying not to ask directly.

“Who says they aren’t? Time changes lots of things, and I have been surprised before,” Yunho said, the bitterness seeping into his voice. “Nothing would surprise me now.”

Kyuhyun could feel the other man’s disillusionment, but still he pressed on. “When I told Ryeowook that I thought it was Jae and Yoochun, he started laughing at me, and said it had to be you and Jae,” Kyuhyun informed Yunho, still doing his best not to directly ask the older man. Yunho’s face hardened, and he turned away from Kyuhyun to stare back out at the horizon. “This so isn’t fair; you know everything about me.”

“Ryeowook was right,” Yunho spat out suddenly. “And that is why Eunhyuk sent you to me. I am sure Junsu inflicted poor Eunhyuk with more nightmare stories of our...doomed relationship than he ever wanted to hear.”

“He thought you would scare me away, but you didn’t,” Kyuhyun asked, puzzled.

“I will always regret my relationship with Jae…because in the end it caused so much pain, so much pain. We were so young, too young, and we were always together, always. When you are the center of Jae’s focus, it’s blinding,” Yunho said, his face suddenly dazed, as if he remembered that blinding feeling all too well.

Kyuhyun frowned slightly. “So, you don’t regret your choice?”

“No, I made the right choice for me and my loved ones. There are days where I feel kinda good about myself, and comforted by knowing I made the right choice…but most days…something will remind me…” Yunho stopped, his eyes dangerously wet.

“Hyung.”

“It’s very hard to know you failed somebody you love so much…that loved you so much. It’s very hard... very hard to watch their love for you turn to hate,” Yunho admitted, turning to Kyuhyun, the wetness in his eyes gone.

“That won’t happen to us…I guess that sounds arrogant, doesn’t it?” Kyuhyun stopped, suddenly thoughtful.

“You have a better chance of working out. Your family is supportive. You have Eunhyuk and Heechul looking out for you…and me. There aren’t any hidden agendas. Plus, you have age and what little wisdom comes with it. Jae and I were ending when we were your age, and you are just beginning.”

“That long ago?” Kyuhyun asked, his mind flashing back to the time when it all must have fallen apart for them.

“It’s not been that long, although it seems like a lifetime ago.”

“Oh, I didn’t mean it that way,” Kyuhyun answered honestly, for once not wishing to antagonize.

“Back to you two. You also have the benefit of years of friendship. I think if you are careful, and all your secret keepers are, too, then you have an excellent chance.”

“But what happens if it still gets out?” Kyuhyun couldn’t help but ask.

“Well, then, we will all help you pack-up and sneak you out of the country,” Yunho told him, laughing as he stepped away from the ledge. “I’ve got to go, always so much to do.”

“Thank you! I can never thank you enough,” Kyuhyun told him, truly thankful, as he embraced the older man. Yunho just laughed and hugged him back tightly.

“Be smart. I am serious. You can’t be too smart in this situation,” Yunho said, pulling away from the hug and beginning to walk away

“We will be,” Kyuhyun promised as he watched the other man walk away toward the door. “Hyung, I don’t think Jae hates you,” Kyuhyun was unable to resist yelling out to the other man before he left.

Yunho stopped in his tracks without turning around. “I hope you’re wrong, Kyuhyun. I hope he hates me, and I hope his hate for me feeds him, making him stronger every day,” Yunho confessed, and then he opened the door and left Kyuhyun alone on the roof.


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Kyuhyun was sitting on the rooftop, cross-legged, with a huge grin spreading from one side of his face to the other, when Ryeowook found him.

“What are you doing on the roof of the hospital?” Ryeowook demanded of Kyuhyun, as he stepped through the door and onto the roof. He quickly turned and spoke with the security guard who had escorted him to the roof. “Thank you so much. He’s not going to jump or anything…there’s an eclipse tonight…or maybe not…nice view, though…I like a good view…thanks, that will be enough.” The security guard smiled at the rambling man and shut the door behind him, leaving them alone on the roof.

“You are almost as bad as a liar as Donghae; it’s embarrassing,” Kyuhyun told Ryeowook, shaking his head in disappointment.

“You know you’re not actually supposed to be on the roof. It’s against the rules.”

“Really? That’s so unlike me.”

“Do you know how hard it is to get permission to get on the roof?” Ryeowook asked him in serious tone as he walked over to the man.

“I was kinda being all melodramatic on the way up here, so didn’t really pay any attention,” Kyuhyun admitted, not having any idea how Yunho got them permission to go to the roof.

“Melodramatic? That’s so unlike you.” Ryeowook said, his voice full of sarcasm, as he sat down bedside Kyuhyun.

“Oh please enlighten me on how difficult it was for you to get up here?” Kyuhyun asked, while rolling his eyes, acting bored already.

“Oh, it wasn’t difficult at all. Yunho Hyung just asked security to bring me up here, and they were very helpful,” Ryeowook told him, grinning.

Kyuhyun couldn’t help laughing at Ryeowook. “That’s so strange, because that’s probably how I got up here, too.”

“He’s a cool friend to have,” Ryeowook told Kyuhyun, smiling at him.

“Did you two talk? About anything?”

“About our doomed gayness? No. I was about to flip out on your dad, and Yunho saved me from embarrassing myself further,” Ryeowook informed Kyuhyun, delighting in the panic that spread cross the other man’s face.

“What did you do to my dad?”

“You should be asking what your dad did to me!”

“My dad is recovering from massive injuries; you’re perfectly healthy. Of course I am going to be worried about my dad!”

“Well, your father felt good enough to involve me in the most awkward conversation of my life…and that’s saying a lot, considering who my group members are - when I say group members, I mostly mean you.”

“Oh, I think I might know how this goes. I was actually talking to him before I went all melodramatic and ended up on the roof,” Kyuhyun said, smiling huge and trying not to laugh.

“It’s not every day that your purely platonic friend’s dad basically welcomes you into the family - as his daughter-in-law,I might add,” a very disgruntled Ryeowook informed Kyuhyun with a big frown on his face.

“Oh my God,” Kyuhyun said, laughing hard as he fell back onto the roof.

“So not funny. I am trying to inform him that we are just friends…giving him the whole blurred lines, sanity returned speech, when he hands me his menu.” Ryeowook stopped to look at the man beside him, who was laughing hysterically. “I am so glad I can provide you with entertainment.”

“Me, too,” Kyuhyun said, holding his stomach as he continued to laugh.

“So apparently he is going to be advanced to solid food soon, and he has requests. He loves your mother, but just between the two of us…he admits that I actually cook better.”

“You do,” Kyuhyun agreed, still laughing.

“Then, he goes on about Thursdays and how if we are in Seoul, how we should just come over, and he will gladly hand the kitchen over to me.”

Kyuhyun sat up quickly. “We have to have dinner with my parents every Thursday? You told him we couldn’t, right?”

“I told him that I would be happy to cook for him, and I don’t mind assisting him on Thursdays.”

“No, no no no, you can’t agree to Thursdays,” Kyuhyun insisted, suddenly not finding it so funny anymore.

“He lost a spleen, Kyuhyun! I just can’t tell him no. You don’t have to come because I…well, I tried to explain to him that we are just friends. You have more stalkers to date,” Ryeowook told him, loving the look of indignation on Kyuhyun’s face.

“You did not tell him that! He actually told me he approves of you, but not her.”

Ryeowook gave Kyuhyun a deadpan look and asked, offended, “Should I be honored?”

“She is really hot,” Kyuhyun admitted, unable to resist riling the man further.

“I am sorry to tell you this, although I shouldn’t be, since I am the most understanding person ever, so I am just going to tell you.” Ryeowook told Kyuhyun, glaring suddenly. “It’s going to be a VERY long time before it is okay for you to tell me who you find hot.”

“Ouch!” Kyuhyun said, leaning away from him.

“I am relieved though that we are not pursuing a romantic relationship, though. Your family is freaking nuts. I mean, you really do come by it honestly,” Ryeowook said, leaning back on his arms, sighing in relief.

“You love my family, and you know it. You still have to deal with them…just no gay activities,” Kyuhyun said evilly, watching as Ryeowook scowled at him.

“Don’t say it like that. I hate when you say that. Such a stupid way of saying it,” Ryeowook said, shaking his head in annoyance.

“Okay, no sexual activities,” Kyuhyun said teasing the other man. He was smiling, and his eyes shone bright with delight.

“You don’t have to look so happy about it.” Ryeowook told him, frowning at the other man, who was obviously pleased about something.

“Well, let’s just say I am just relieved that I changed my mind before it was too late,” Kyuhyun told Ryeowook, biting his bottom lip and trying not to laugh as he watched the other man become enraged.

“Kyuhyun, don’t make me push you off this roof.”

“You better be careful; there is a security camera back there,” Kyuhyun said, turning and pointing to the camera above the door they had come out of.

“Damn my luck,” Ryeowook said disappointed, as he turned and looked up at the camera.

“That’s exactly what I was thinking when I saw it, but I promised Yunho to be careful,” Kyuhyun said thoughtfully, causing Ryeowook to turn and look at him.

Ryeowook immediately noticed the change in Kyuhyun. He instantly turned and asked, “What?”

“Always assume there is a camera. Always assume somebody is watching. Always assume somebody is listening…even to a whisper. Don’t just shut doors; lock them, and then test them to make sure they’re locked.”

“Kyuhyun?” Ryeowook asked nervously, his eyes locked on the other man.

“When I am on stage and I want to touch you…I have to touch anybody but you. You have to do the same thing,” Kyuhyun advised, his eyes full of light and mischief.

“What are you saying?” Ryeowook asked, suddenly feeling his heart swell.

“This is the secret of our life,” Kyuhyun told him lovingly. “We must always protect it.”

“Are you saying you changed your mind again?” Ryeowook asked, not daring to hope.

“I was scared, so scared. The hospital again, my dad, and another wreck…I just lost it for awhile. I can’t stand even thinking of my dad hurt, and to think that someday, I might be the cause of him hurting... it was just too much for me,” Kyuhyun admitted finally.

Ryeowook reached for his hand. “I know.”

Kyuhyun squeezed Ryeowook’s hand tightly. “But you are right; I am blessed my…our family is pretty wonderful, and they can always be a retreat for us. A safe haven,” Kyuhyun said tenderly, smiling when he saw the blush on Ryeowook’s cheeks. “Are you blushing?”

“No,” Ryeowook said, turning away quickly.

“Does it make you uncomfortable when I say ‘our family’?” Kyuhyun teased.

“Stop it,” Ryeowook said, blushing more.

“Well, you are practically the daughter they never had, because my sister totally doesn’t count as a girl,” Kyuhyun said, irritating Ryeowook on purpose, enjoying every minute of it.

“You better know right now, if you plan on feminizing me to get over your ‘gay’ issues, then that isn’t going to work for me,” Ryeowook seethed, letting go of Kyuhyun’s hand.

“I have no gay issues. I openly admit to wanting to fuck you for the rest of my life,” Kyuhyun told him as he leered at him.

“Kyuhyun…” Ryeowook said in a warning tone.

“What you want me to say? Make love? That’s totally girly, and I wouldn’t want to be accused of feminizing you?”

Ryeowook, who was clearly vexed now, asked, “That is so funny, because I remember somebody who happens to be on this very rooftop now…who isn’t me, practically chanting that phrase once!”

“Yeah, but I was totally trying to get laid. I’d say anything,” Kyuhyun told him as he tilted his head back and laughed.

Ryeowook jumped to his feet. “You…you …you are horrible! This should be a sweet, wonderful moment that we can always treasure and instead-” Ryeowook stopped, realizing his own words, as his whole face turned red. “I swear if you say one thing about how much that sounded like a high school girl, I am going to throw you off this roof. I don’t care if I have to go to jail for the rest of my life!”

Kyuhyun jumped to his feet. “I am sorry. I don’t know what comes over me…it’s just so easy to rile you up. You know I love you.”

“I don’t even want to talk to you,” Ryeowook told him, frowning as he turned his back on Kyuhyun, unmoved.

Kyuhyun walked up behind Ryeowook and leaned in and whispered. “I do love you. I love how much you care. How hard you always try to do the right thing….”

“And most of all, you love that I love you,” Ryeowook pointed out, folding his arms across his chest.

“You are right, I do love that you love me. I bask in your love. It gives me strength to know that you love me. It rejuvenates me, no matter how sick or tired I am. I’m very protective of your love for me - ”

“More like selfish,” Ryeowook interrupted to say, but he was softening with every word Kyuhyun whispered in his ear.

“Definitely, you are mine, only mine. I hate to share you with the members, family, and friends. It drives me crazy that you love other people, makes me mad with jealousy - ”

“It’s not exactly the same…not at all,” Ryeowook shyly admitted, turning around to face Kyuhyun.

“I loved you as my friend, and I love you as my lover. I cannot wait to make love to you, because I intend to continue making love to you for the rest of my life. Are you trembling?”

“No,” Ryeowook answered, trying to still his body.

“Yes, you are,” Kyuhyun said, moving closer and taking the other man’s hand.

“We are on the roof, and it is cold,” Ryeowook told Kyuhyun with a radiant smile, as he squeezed his hand back tightly.

“It is summer, and you have a jacket on,” Kyuhyun pointed out. “I think you are trembling with anticipation.”

“And what if I am? What if the thought of having you inside me…makes me very excited?” Ryeowook asked suddenly, any shyness gone as he stepped in closer to Kyuhyun. “What are you going to do about it?”

Kyuhyun suddenly swallowed deeply, and his eyes filled with lust. Kyuhyun turned and looked at the camera. “You’re a cruel man, Kim Ryeowook.”

“I did learn from the master,” Ryeowook said, taking a step away and letting go of Kyuhyun’s hand. “There is a camera on us.”

“Oh, believe me, that fact hasn’t escaped my notice. It’s all that’s keeping me from ravishing you,” Kyuhyun said as he looked up, studying the camera intently.

“Let me clarify something for you…even if there wasn’t a camera, we still would not be having rooftop sex,” Ryeowook informed the other man.

“Why not?” Kyuhyun asked, unable to keep the whine out of his voice.

“Your parents are right below us,” Ryeowook said, completely turned off by the thought.

“They are like five floors down,” Kyuhyun explained, laughing at the other man.

“It’s embarrassing. It doesn’t matter; there is a camera, so this whole conversation is moot,” Ryeowook said, crossing his arms with a pout on his lips.

“I love it when you pout. It makes me want to nip at those perfect lips,” Kyuhyun said huskily, moving closer to Ryeowook. “So if the camera wasn’t here, would you kiss me?”

“Oh, I would most definitely kiss you. I love to…what are doing?” Ryeowook asked completely shocked as Kyuhyun started pulling his jacket off. “Kyuhyun, there is a camera; have you gone completely insane?”

“Don’t get too excited,” Kyuhyun told him, smirking when he took Ryeowook’s jacket and tossed it up over the camera. “Now, no more camera.”

“Security will be here in, like, five minutes,” Ryeowook squeaked as Kyuhyun grabbed him and pushed him up against the door.

“Then, you better kiss me quick,” Kyuhyun said, staring down at Ryeowook with so much love, it took the other man’s breath away.

“I think I can manage that,” Ryeowook said breathlessly, wrapping his arms around Kyuhyun’s neck and pulling him down to his soft, sweet lips. They kissed slowly and deeply, savoring each other and the promise of all that was to follow.

The End…
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END!!!
Ahh~~~ The perfect ending to a lovely story...

I am sad to see it go though... :(

The KyuWook rooftop scene = the most hilarious thing EVER! I was cracking up and flailing in my seat. Those two are so adorable. And Kyu has quite the way with words.

Thanks for the great ending! I hope you will continue to write more amazing fanfics.
PERFECT TIMING! SPOT

I love the ending!!! So sad this story is over, but I love that they're together :) Great job, I love your writing. I hope you write more!!!

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OMG! NO! why is it the end! This story was so good. It was so much more realistic than most fan fics. I loved reading it.
it's a happy ending?! Hohoh,and i love their conversation here! Lmao

nice story,this series really entertain me :D
noooooooo it ends!!!
But thank god, happy ending yeye!
You are such a briliant writer, ive been reading this from the 1st chapter and always go 'yay' when you updated.
Thanks for sharing :D
“So not funny. I am trying to inform him that we are just friends…giving him the whole blurred lines, sanity returned speech when he hands me his menu.”
LOL I officially declare my love for Kyu's dad. And Ryeo saying what exactly Kyu's said before is just hilarious. They're really two halves of one, not 2 individuals XD
“Always assume there is a camera. Always assume somebody is watching. Always assume somebody is listening, even to a whisper. Don’t just shut doors, lock them and then test them to make sure they locked.” very realistic. It's pretty hard but I'm sure they can handle. Esp after what they've gone through. Just wish them luck.
I really love the way Kyu says "our family" Probably the sweetest thing ever heard from him :)
LOL the last part. Al about love making and all. Are you encouraging on us to expect a sequel? I mean, I keep thinking of that picture of drunken KyuWook at Kyu's house after chapter 31 LOOL
The ending, I love it so much I can't even tell. Also at the same time it's a bit sad to say goodbye to this series...It's really awesome! I, and many other readers of yours, have always been excited for your updates every week from the start. The most wonderful non-AU series I've ever read. Thank you so much for sharing this with us, making us laugh and cry with your characters. 3months of preparation of yours is totally worth it :). Really hope to see more from you, KyuWook or not I'll happily anticipate :)
I love you for being such a brilliant writer and wonderful friend XD
From Lyn, with all my love :x
If you all are expecting smut from a sequel then I most definitely will be writing a prequel! LOL

It took me three months from conception to finish writing it. My computer was covered with sticky notes and I kept notes in my phone every time I thought of something semi-clever...no matter where I was. My computer is covered with 'Damaged' notes now...it looks like a schizophrenic has taken over the room.

Thank you for always reading and supporting me...you are full of all kinds of wonderful.:)
Loved it! yay! they are finally together! Haha just to ask, will there be a smut sequel?^^
I wanna cry of joy and happinessssssss ;____; OMG YESSSS A PERFECT ENDING FOR A PERFECT STORY OF A PERFECT COUPLE IN THIS WORLD *sobs*
And from now on i cant help but see Yunho as KYUWOOK SAVIOR AND HERO :DDDDD
Every things that made laugh so hard in this chapter, every part of angst and fluff.... I just cant get enough of them, so sad that it's ended already D': but so happy and relieved that the ending is faaaaaar faaaaaar away from my pathetic mind lolz
Timber, thank you so much for writing this *hugs* :)
With Perfect Readers!

I love Yunho and they will repay his kindness.

You you for being such a sweetheart for always giving me such wonderful support!
I WAS HOLDING MY BREATH IN EVERY CONVERSATION THEY MAKE. Lol, I was like "Oh my god, fuck you to hell Kyuhyun if you put Ryeowook in utter heartbreak!" then the ending went "and they lived happily ever after.." Oh dear, this made my day! <333

I LOVE YOU FOREVER AND BEYOND. THIS IS THE ONLY CHAPTERED FIC I EVER FOLLOWED, OH MY GOD TEARS ARE ESCAPING FROM MY EYES RIGHT. This story made me get into KyuWook, to the point of /shipping/ them as much as I ship my otp I might add. AND IT PAINS ME TO HELL THAT THIS CAME TO AN END ALREADY. DARLING PLEASE WRITE AGAIN ;________;
OOOMMMMYYYGGOOOODDDD! I LOVE THIS SO MUCH! Kyaaaaa~
I always assume that its really Yunjae. hihihi well, im right then. :)) I really really love your masterpiece and i love you for sharing this. ahhh. its like i wanna cry coz happiness right now! :D good job!
Thank you so much for reading!

It was always Yunjae. I was planning my Yunjae story while I wrote this one.
Oh Em Gee, This series is over -wipes tears away-

Kyuwook ended up together *fan-girl squeals*

-runs off to hospital roof top to get some HD pictures-
Good job~!!!
While reading all the chapters, never once, was I bored xD
Never bored, that's a high complement.

I was trying to read a story yesterday that I know has to be amazing, but dammit I was like a kid with ADD!

Thanks so much reading!

Edited at 2010-10-18 12:40 am (UTC)
waaa, the last chapter ! I'll defitenly miss this sooooo much! This is the best KyuWook fic i have ever read!
'kay brb reading XD

aaah, do you mind to make an epilogue?
I was going to write an epilogue......but I decided not too. My dear adviser Amy agreed.

Instead of an epilogue I will tag the parts of 'Damaged' that have them in it so, you all can see how they are in a years time.

Plus I will most definitely be writing a one shot called, 'Cooking with the Chos' sometimes in the future.
Aaaah! *incoherent* I love you so much!! *runs around screaming happily and insanely* I will be back for a coherent comment, once I calm down...
OMG OMG OMG BEST ENDING EVERR. <3
i'm an avid fan of yours. this is the only kyuwook fic i followed. i always creep, and i never leave a comment and i'm sorry for that but you deserve like THE bestest comment ever.

I LOVED IT. <333
sooo much. BEST. KYUWOOK. FIC. EVER. and i love how it can happen in real life with Yunho and shizz. GAH~ you're just amazing. I hope you continue bringing osmness to our LiveJournals. :")
Awe, but I love all comments. Any comment is welcomed and loved. You all shouldn't stress over comments...because I am a comment whore and love them all.

I will most surly keep writing, not sure how awesome it will be though!

Thanks so much for reading....and such a nice compliment.:)
I love love this fan-fic, I read every chapter of it, thank you for writing it...
So sad that it has to end, can you write like a sequel about their lives with their parents or something, I envy you for your writing skills, do share your secret :p
I don't have any secrets other then when I have a good idea I write it down. I never make myself write unless I am in the mood. Writers block is your friend, because you shouldn't write if you have to think too hard about it.

I will probably write a sequel after I finish my Yunjae story and a TFAN one shot, that features Thursday night cooking at the Cho house.
“Then you better kiss me quick.” Kyuhyun said staring
down at Ryeowook with so much love it took the other
man ’s breath away.
“I think I can manage that.” Ryeowook said breathlessly,
wrapping his arms around Kyuhyun’s neck and pulling him
down to his soft, sweet lips. They kissed slowly and deeply
savoring each other and the promise of all that was to follow. <-- THIS LINE is SO OHMIGOOOOOOSH!!!!! XD

you are so have to make an epilogue!! *tackled you

Yunho is very caring for Kyu n Wook
n *aheem* i really LOVE IT when Kyu become naughty for Wook *sorry, for my perverted mind

this is the BEST fic i ever read!!! You are awesome!
Keep writing and thanks for sharing this amazing fic! ;D
I am glad you loved the ending!

No epilogue sorry! I am about to start posting another story called 'Damaged' but it is Yunjae...but it has the same exact Yunho in it. It will also have my KyuWook babies making appearances in it. So instead of an epilogue I will let make sure to mark the parts of 'Damaged' that has the KyuWook boys in it......so people can see how they are doing in year or more from now.

Plus I will also being doing a One Shot when 'Damaged' is done and then probably a sequel.
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG AFHWISGHWIFGWIGH
"“I have no gay issues, I openly admit to wanting to fuck you, for the rest of my life.” Kyuhyun told him as he leered at him."

I DIED! X.X

“Definitely, you are mine, only mine. I hate to share you with the members, family, and friends. It drives me crazy that you love other people, makes me mad with jealously…”



“It’s not exactly the same…not at all.” Ryeowook shyly admitted turning around to face Kyuhyun.



“I loved you as my friend and I love you as my lover. I cannot wait to make love to you, because I intend to continue making love to you for the rest of my life. Are you trembling?”

I was revived with the fluff. Omg, this is soooo cute!! <3

“And what if I am? What if the thought of having you inside me, makes me very excited?” Ryeowook asked suddenly any shyness gone as he stepped in closer to Kyuhyun. “What are you going to do about it?”

I DIED AGAIN!! X_______X omg xD

This was the most epic Suju fandom fic I've ever read! I've said it many times and I'll say it again. YOU ARE THE MOST AWESOMESAUCE AUTHOR EVER!!!!!!!
I'm sad though ;-; it's the end, omg, e.e but I loved it so soooooooooooooo much <3 it's been such a epic ride! I'm gonna reread this soon again.

<3333333333333333333333 you forever!
~
Love,
Kitami

Re: OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG AFHWISGHWIFGWIGH
You really are too cool with the feedback!

I am glad you liked those lines...that one I thought might a be a little too much, but I am really glad I left it now!

You are too kind with with the compliments!

Thanks so much for reading!
*sneaks in to leave a really ( i mean REALLY) late comment*
Why am I so late to this?
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I need to mentally slap myself for being an lazy-as*ed reader. Hard.
But I couldn't imagine a better ending for this<3
However, I didn't want it to end TT.TT
I ended up tearing at the end like an emotionally unstable person.
And I was literally yelling at the end when they shared the kiss. It was a total MINDBLOWING moment right there!
Imagine me jumping up and down my bed like some kind of idiot making up a song that goes:: I say KYU and you say Wook, KYU-WOOK, KYU-WOOK, KYU-WOOK!
And, I know a lot of people have already said that they like the rooftop scene between the two...but I can't help but be one of them too<3 They were so sweet with each other and somehow you managed to get some comic relief in there otherwise I would melted in a puddle of KyuWook love (gah...dont mind my weirdness)

How can I explain this weird sensation that overcame my body after reading this. Its not like tingly and warm that makes people go AWWW its like going through seven rollercoasters, being wrapped in a huge fluffy towel, and being bathe in the most amazing mixture of love, comedy, angst, and the hard-work of a writer that I won't ever forget. The past 32 chapters were full of ups and downs, some scenes making me lose myself into fits of laughter and some into uncontrollable tears. Why am I so happy and sad at the same time? Is this what it feels like to be bipolar or something?? Im happy that they ended up together but yet, its the end of a beautiful series.

And then there's the question of, "Why am I so attached to this?"
Maybe its because I've grown to love the way you portrayed the characters, making them fall in love even though the narrow-mindness of society hindered them with their feelings for one another. Or that I love how you slipped in some of my favorite biases and their long-LONG legs. (That chapter is embedded into my mind) The proximity to how close it is to all the things that has happened to them in real life makes it seem possilble. ( Although we all know that Kyu and Wook don't roll that way. Or do they?? Hmmm *contempltes in this rather interesting thought* ) Its a mix of everything that I love, hence the reason why I'm crying as of right now. Sad tears? No. Happy tears? Yes:)

(and a little heartbroken at the little YunJae there. But Yunho and Jaejoong Fighting!)

Love you♥ and thanks for writing and sticking to this fic to its end:)
i LOVE this! love the rooftop conversation, love how kyuhyun can get rejuvenated just with encouraging words that ignite hope in him again. this story has ended but it has come a long way (32 chapters is no small feat!), so thank you for making it such an enjoyable ride for us readers. =) love your music choices especially for this and the past two chapters.
The music choices! I always forgot to add them! I had lots more but I forgot to add them! I am glad you enjoyed them. I think you are the only person who noticed!

Thanks for reading!
Oh my god...~
It's really really hard to ecplain HOW awesome this fanfiction is..
The end, it's so perfect, even if it's the end and makes me - well not wanna cry - but defenitely sad..~ Very sad.
If always been anticipating your updates, and when you really had updated, it made my day! [Even if I wasn't commenting very much!]

In this chapter, oh~ I've been laughing SO MUCH!
Really, I sat here laughing for a minute and well, after that, I could restart reading it! :D Really, this TAKES TIME!

But it wasn't just 'funny'. It was also so fluffish, sweet, realistic and some kind of moving~! My heart kinda stopped, when Yunho finally revealed the story of his broken love and it was so sad.. Even I'm not really a Yunjaefan [Jaemin ftw hehe] I wished them another future. Bitter-sweet side story.

And there's just one thing I like to ask for: EPILOG!
Just something about Kyuwook alldaylife and all these kinda stuff..~ ♥ With this, your story is absolutely complete, awesome and truely one of the best Kyuwook stories I ever read! No, more like one of the best fanfictions I've ever read and this isn't something I say very often.

So, please don't stop writing! Even if you're going to make us wait for your next series, don't stop it, okay? :) You're an awesome author, and I'd read every pairing. :]

Have a nice day ♥
I wondered where you had ran off too.:)

Poor Yunho it's just so easy for me to torture him.

No, epilogue but Yunho/Yunjae does get the whole story next time and KyuWook are the little side story. Just enough KyuWook so all will know how they are doing.

Thanks so much for reading!
awwwwwwwwwwww its the end already....*tears* im very happy how you ended this one. Thanks so much for providing me refuge for sanity for the past months. I'd be eternally grateful ^^ You wrote this beautifully and it was very entertaining for the readers ^^ I hope you can write more and i was very happy when you said you'd probably be writing one shots with this AU ^^ HAPPY KYUWOOK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^^
yeay....happy ending~!!!!!!!!!!!
but i'm kinda sad though coz this is the end..*sobs*
thanks for making me anticipates for the chapters..
i'm looking forward for your next fanfic if any..
thanks a lot for writing a beautiful story~!!!
SEQUEL SEQUEL SEQUEL SEQUEL!!!~ *chant chant chant*
(:
AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME ENDING Except... I don't want this to end T_T
Aww, poor Yunho, I feel bad for him =/
THE LAST FEW SENTENCES ARE MAKING MY IMAGINATION GO WILD OMG!!! T_T
Kyuwook rooftop scene... Hmm *imagine* WAIT!! NO, I swear I'm not a pervert!!! (:
UBER UBER UBER HOPE YOU MAKE A SEQUEL (:
Love yuuu for writing such an amazing fanfic!!!
I'mma add you as a friend (:
I already accepting you as a friend.:) I welcome all friends! A sequel may very well be in the future. A one shot of a Thursday Cooking session is already planned.

Yunho is darling, that I can't help but torture! Yunjae is the story I am writing, same Yunho as the one in TFAN.

Thanks so much for reading!