Sweet Deception, Chapter Fourteen

Title: Sweet Deception, Chapter Fourteen
Author: Aquariuslover
Pairings: WooGyu
Rating: R
Genre: Angst
Length: Chaptered
Beta: tahoeturquoise

Summary: For years a fire has been smoldering deep inside of WooHyun, and now it is burning out of control and wrecking havoc on the group. A danger is looming over SungGyu, but will he pay it heed before it claims his life? Can an ominous deal be brokered in time to save Infinite?



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Author's Note:  This was a commenter's appreciation post...where only the people who commented on the last chapter could see this chapter.  I am making it public early because I couldn't add some people -- like awesome Twitter folks.


A week later SungGyu was on a plane with the other members of Infinite on their way to the United States for the making of their newest video. The members were surprised by the number of empty seats they found on the plane, but a stewardess had explained that a large tour group had cancelled at the last minute. This made Sung Gyu happy; he hated crowded planes.

“So…are you a member of the mile high club?” WooHyun asked slyly from his seat beside SungGyu. All the other members were sitting alone, scattered across the back of the plane, except for the two of them. WooHyun had insisted on sitting next to him, and as was customary, SungGyu’s usual threats, glares and complaints had proven ineffective when used on the other main vocal.

“I will throw you out of this plane, no lie.”

“I wasn’t offering to initiate you into the club.”

“Don’t.”

“It was a question. A question I am genuinely curious about.”

“Yes, I am a member.”

WooHyun gave the other man a disbelieving look. “You are lying.”

SungGyu shook his head. “A stewardess once gave me head in the bathroom…head counts, doesn’t it?”

“I think so,” WooHyun said, his eyes darkening as he looked down the plane’s aisle. “What flight was it? Do you still keep in contact with her?”

SungGyu groaned.

“I am serious,” WooHyun insisted. “I don’t want some slut handing out my peanuts.”

SungGyu groaned louder.

“You probably weren’t the only one.”

“I know I wasn’t the only one,” SungGyu answered casually. “She also did DongWoo and Hoya on that same flight.”

“When the hell was this?”

SungGyu shrugged. “I don’t remember exactly. All I remember is we were on our way to Japan.”

“I wasn’t with you…or I would have noticed. Not to mention you all would have been bragging…like the dogs you are.”

“Actually, I don’t think you were with us,” SungGyu replied, tapping his chin. “I think you came on a later flight.”

“You are such a man slut,” WooHyun grumbled. “I would expect this from you and Hoya, but DongWoo…I expected more from him.”

SungGyu rolled his eyes.

“What was her name?”

“I don’t remember.”

“Did you ever know her name?”

“Stop it.”

“Does she still work for the airlines? Have you seen her lately?”

“Stop.”

“No, I want to know.”

“I’m not telling you.”

“Hoya and DongWoo will. I will sit with them on our next flight to Japan. I know Hoya will brag about it. I can’t believe I never heard him brag about it before.”

“He did brag; we all did until we realized she did all three of us…then we shut up about it.”

“Were you embarrassed?”

“No.”

“You should have been.”

SungGyu banged his head against the back of his chair. “Go sit somewhere else.”

“No, I’ve been good,” WooHyun whined him. The younger man folded his arms in front of him defiantly. “I am not moving. I let you sleep.”

“You did let me sleep, now stop acting…” SungGyu paused to add in a whisper, “So fucking jealous.”

WooHyun growled under his breath. “I am not jealous of some hooker stewardess. I just think—it could be bad publicity for Infinite.”

“She wasn’t a hooker.”

“She wasn’t very professional…more like an airline slut.”

“I am glad you aren’t jealous.”

“I have had a lot of sex before,” WooHyun blurted out, “lots.”

“Good for you.”

“I could have sex on this plane if I wanted to.”

SungGyu snorted.

“I could.”

“Not with me.”

WooHyun tilted his head up until he was looking a few seats in front of them. “No, but I could have sex with someone else.”

SungGyu followed WooHyun’s gaze to SungYeol, who sat a few rows in front of them, all alone. He appeared to be sleeping. “That would be such a great idea.”

“It’s true, he wants me. He still does…I can tell.”

“You know that would be a mistake of colossal proportions.”

“Would you be jealous?”

SungGyu said nothing for moment and thought carefully before replying, “Yes, I would be horribly jealous. I would cry in my pillow every night.”

WooHyun studied SungGyu for only a moment before he responded, “You are lying. You are just attempting to protect SungYeol from me.”

“Don’t fuck with SungYeol unless you are sincere,” SungGyu warned. “He is already screwed up enough without you adding to it.”

WooHyun sighed and rested his head against the older man’s shoulder. “I am just talk. All talk.”

“Stupid talk. The talk of an asshole.”

“I wouldn’t do it. Not ever, not even when I was at my worst…I wouldn’t have. I could have but I didn’t. I wouldn’t use him like that.”

SungGyu let out a breath of air he hadn’t realized he was holding. “I am glad you didn’t…he worries me so much sometimes.”

“I don’t know how to fix the situation with him,” WooHyun admitted. “He takes everything wrong…even simple kindness.”

“I know.”

“He is vindictive.”

“No, he isn’t,” SungGyu corrected. “SungYeol is insecure. His insecurity fuels everything he does. When you didn’t return his feelings it made his insecurity worse.”

WooHyun, who was still leaning against SungGyu, pointed out, “But I am convinced he knows why I couldn’t return his feelings.”

SungGyu gazed in SungYeol’s direction. “I think you might be right.”

“If he knows how I feel about you...why can’t he just get over it?”

“Really?” SungGyu replied with a voice dripping with sarcasm. “I can’t believe that you of all people have the gall to suggest he just get over his feelings!”

WooHyun straightened up in his seat, immediately defensive. “It’s not the same.”

“To him it is.”

“Bullshit,” WooHyun said, continuing to whisper. “I have loved you for years. I love you for a million reasons…with SungYeol it is just about sex.”

“I am going to hit you,” SungGyu hissed under his breath. “You blackmailed me into having sex with you. Stop acting so high and mighty.”

“I didn’t…” WooHyun paused, knowing his denial of blackmail wouldn’t work any better on SungGyu then it had on Key. “I was desperate…and you didn’t hate it.”

“The jury is still out.”

WooHyun exhaled and continued, “My love for you is not just physical. Like I said, I love you for a million reasons.”

SungGyu rolled his eyes. “Just empty words.”

“Sincere words,” WooHyun protested. “My love for you has very little to do with the physical, you know…it’s deeper than that. It isn’t about what is on the outside.”

SungGyu fought against the urge to be offended and confessed, “I know I am not the handsomest man.”

“You are not, but neither am I. My feelings for you have very little to do with appearance. I am not like a fan girl that looks at a group without knowing anything about them and automatically picks the most handsome one as her favorite. Don’t get me wrong, I have had my fair share of pretty boys…but that wasn’t enough for me. I need more—I’m not that shallow. I truly do believe that beauty is only skin deep. Most people base attraction on appearance but my attraction for you is based…on you. It’s deep…I know the real you. I know how you are on the inside, what makes you tick…and I simply love all of you. If I was blind I would feel the same way about you.”

“You need to be quiet,” SungGyu scolded, feeling as if he had been stripped naked…exposed for all to see.

“Nobody can hear us,” WooHyun said, refusing to be quiet. “And you need to hear this.”

“No, I don’t.”

“Why don’t you want to hear it?”

“I just don’t.”

“I don’t care, you need to hear it. You need to hear that I love your grumpy ass. I love how you lead so naturally. I love how sometimes when we are on stage you take a step back and put SungJong and SungYeol in front of you. I love every awkward thing about you. I love how you act the fool on broadcasts for the groups’ benefit. I love when you can’t stop nagging. I love how you sing with all your heart and soul. I love how you let the members bully you. I love how lazy you can be. I love how you totally put—”

“I get it.”

“You totally don’t,” WooHyun told him. “Sometimes SungYeol isn’t the only insecure member in this group.”

“I am not insecure.”

“You shouldn’t be because you are perfect.”

“Shut up.”

“No. You are my Perfect Gyu.”

“Go sit somewhere else.”

“No.”

SungGyu turned to face the other man. “You can feed my ego all you want, but I am not having sex with you again.”

WooHyun smiled knowingly. “Then that is your choice. I told you I wasn’t going to pressure you. I am not saying this to feed your ego…I am saying it because it is the truth.”

The older man looked away and towards SungYeol. “I feel so sorry for SungYeol. What it must have been like when you had alienated all the other members and he was the recipient of all your attention…he never really had a chance.”

“That’s not fair. I never proclaimed to feel anything but friendship for him.”

“But you smiled at him.”

“I smile a lot.”

“Your smile is dangerous.”

“I never smiled at him like I smile at you.”

“You flirted with him.”

“Only for the cameras,” WooHyun insisted. “What SungYeol feels is on him, but do not confuse what he feels for love. SungYeol is not in love with me.”

SungGyu closed his eyes. “Even if he doesn’t love you…he still wants you because he knows you don’t want him. When you tried to push him away, you just made him want you more. Don’t you see, he’s so insecure…if he did win your affections it would be a great validation for him.”

WooHyun rested his head against SungGyu’s shoulder again. “How can you be so observant about the other members…and so clueless when it comes to me? It used to drive me crazy.”

“Because you are a sneaky, two-faced liar…and they are honest. They are not lying to me, not like you. Their hearts are on their sleeves for all to see.”

“Even if I did lie…” WooHyun told the other man as he took his hand and squeezed it. “You should have seen how I felt. You should have known.”

SungGyu admitted, “Honestly, before you started acting like a raging idiot I would have sworn I knew you well.”

WooHyun, who still held the other man’s hand, smiled sadly. “I know…it’s why you were so upset with me.”

“I wasn’t prepared to find out that I was actually an idiot.”

“Don’t say that.”

“I was.”

“But you let me lie to you,” WooHyun confessed as he pulled his iPod out of his pocket with his free hand. “This is a perfect example.”

SungGyu looked at the iPod, remembering how easily WooHyun had fooled him. “Like I said, I’m an idiot.”

WooHyun shook his head. “No; remember, you like my sweet lies.”

“Do I?”

“You didn’t want to know, so you chose to believe my lies.”

“I don’t count your lying about your feelings as one of your sweet lies.”

“You don’t?”

“No, it almost destroyed everything,” SungGyu reminded him. “It still might destroy SungYeol.”

“It won’t,” WooHyun answered, unable to hide his alarm. “If it didn’t destroy…” WooHyun paused. “If it didn’t destroy us…it won’t destroy him.”

“We are strong, so much stronger than he will ever be,” SungGyu stated, reminding him. “I think I can forgive you anything. Who else could go through…what we have gone through and still be sitting here like this…talking like this? I should never have forgiven you…most people would have hated you forever. I should hate you.”

WooHyun nodded his head. “Your ability to forgive is your greatest strength.”

SungGyu chuckled. “You would think so.”

WooHyun smiled. “You never hold a grudge. You grumble for a day, but then it is all forgotten.”

“Hey, I was pissed at you for three weeks last time.”

“Only two and half weeks.”

“I thought it was more; but still, I was mad for two and half weeks.”

WooHyun laughed. “Also, during that time we were apart for one week.”

“But I was mad at you during that week, I assure you.”

“But you weren’t with me, so it doesn’t count.”

“I am not that forgiving.”

“You are the most forgiving person I know.”

“Lies,” SungGyu told him as he looked out the window. “My mother doesn’t consider me forgiving.”

WooHyun intertwined their fingers. “You are the most forgiving to her…she just can’t see the damage she’s inflicted on you. She can’t allow herself to see all that you had to forgive.”

SungGyu swallowed, remembering all he had forgiven. “No, you are wrong. I am most forgiving toward you…my liar, blackmailer, and rapist.”

WooHyun let go of SungGyu’s hand and straightened up in his seat. “I wish you wouldn’t say that.”

“Not saying it doesn’t make it less true,” SungGyu told him, feeling his anger begin to stir. “We can sit here and play nice, I can forgive you…but it doesn’t change what you did.”

WooHyun shifted in his seat uncomfortably. “I thought we were talking about SungYeol.”

SungGyu sided-eyed WooHyun and snapped, “Go play with DongWoo. I am sure he misses you.”

WooHyun met SungGyu’s gaze and felt the other man’s irritation. “Do you need a break from me?”

“Yes.”

“Okay,” WooHyun relented, getting up out of his seat.

SungGyu reached up and took WooHyun’s iPod from his him. “I think I will keep this.”

“Why?”

“I like your favorites list.”

WooHyun laughed. “Oh, I bet you do.”

*******************

“He’s just lying in the road,” WooHyun declared with a chuckle and headed toward their exhausted leader, who was sprawled out on the road with a small pink blanket covering him. They were at an outside set at Universal Studios filming for their video.

“You are being really obvious,” SungYeol said from behind WooHyun, causing the main vocal to stop dead in his tracks. It was a bright sunny day and the boys had been up for 24 hours straight working on their video.

“What do you mean?” WooHyun asked as he turned around to face SungYeol.

SungYeol cast his gaze up and down the street they were filming on for eavesdroppers before he answered, “Your true heart is showing.”

WooHyun made a heart with his hands and smugly replied, “My hearts are always showing.”

SungYeol walked up closer to WooHyun and whispered, “Your love for the leader is showing through.”

“Of course, I love him. I love all of you.”

SungYeol’s face went still before he pointed out, “But you are only crushing on him.”

WooHyun immediately took SungYeol by the arm and lead him farther down the street. “A crush is it?”

“It’s pretty obvious.”

“Really? Since when?”

“Since I started using my brain,” SungYeol stated as WooHyun led him to a more secluded area down the street.

“Well, you are not using your brain if you think I am crushing on SungGyu.”

“Ha! You have the gall to deny it!”

WooHyun crossed his arms and corrected, “I have loved him for longer than I have known you…so I wouldn’t call it a crush.”

SungYeol took a step back, completely taken aback. “Love…”

“Yes, I am in love with him. It’s a one sided love that made me crazy. It made me…it made me do things I shouldn’t have done…things I regret.”

“What did you do?”

“I hurt him and I also hurt you,” WooHyun confessed. “I gave you attention that wasn’t sincere…and because of that attention you thought things…things that were never true.”

“I never thought you loved me,” SungYeol informed him. “I am not that stupid…but do you mean it? Are you really in love with SungGyu?”

“Yes.”

SungYeol sat down on the curb of the street as everything suddenly became clear to him. “I knew you cared for him…and now it makes perfect sense. They say we hurt the ones we love the most.”

“I hate that phrase and I hate…”

“You hate what?”

“That the saying is true in regards to me…that I hurt him. I have never ever hurt anyone as much as I have hurt him.”

SungYeol looked at the man sleeping in the street. “Does he know how you feel?”

WooHyun nodded his head. “He knows. He doesn’t like it, but he knows.”

“You two were acting so strange and I could tell he was angry with you…I guess…I now know why.”

WooHyun agreed, “Yeah.”

SungYeol, who was still looking at their dozing leader, pointed out, “I am much better looking than he is.”

“Some would agree with you,” WooHyun conceded.

SungYeol looked away from SungGyu and up at WooHyun. “But not you?”

“He is perfect to me…gorgeous and the most attractive man in the world. I only want him, nobody else. He’s all I see.”

“You know he’s never going to love you back…not the way you love him,” SungYeol told WooHyun. “He’s straight, really straight.”

WooHyun controlled his expression and sat down beside SungYeol. “That doesn’t change how I feel.”

“No, it doesn’t…one can not help how they feel. Can they?”

WooHyun winced, hearing the unspoken insinuation. “You don’t love me SungYeol. You never did.”

SungYeol looked back at SungGyu, who was now sitting up watching them. “No, like I told SungGyu, I don’t love you. I just want to have sex with you.”

“We are not having sex. Ever!”

“Why? Don’t tell me you are saving yourself for love again. You will be saving yourself forever, because he doesn’t want you.”

“Just because he doesn’t want me, doesn’t change the fact that he is all I want.”

SungYeol scoffed in derision. “That is so stupid. I really thought you were smarter than this; how perfectly trite of you to fall in love with a straight man.”

WooHyun grimaced and turned a heated glare on SungYeol as the taller man’s words hit too close. “When you get over your little fixation with me, you can chastise me for wanting what I can’t have.”

“I am getting there. You are an idiot and that’s beginning to be a turn off.”

“Well, hurry up and be completely turned off. I’m sick of your pathetic advances,” WooHyun told him cruelly.

“Pathetic advances?”

“Yes, pathetic. Not wanted.”

“Well, don’t you worry…I won’t trouble you again…with what I want.”

“Good.”

“Did SungGyu treat you like…like you treat me when he found out how you felt?” SungYeol demanded.

“Worse,” WooHyun informed the taller man. “Much worse.”

“I doubt that…he doesn’t act like you don’t exist,” SungYeol accused. “He doesn’t ignore you. You two are still friends.”

WooHyun sneered. “The hell? You act like we have been best buddies all these weeks. Let me tell you…we had to fight for our friendship. It’s been hard. He wanted to hate me and he had every right to do so. I had to fight for him and our friendship.”

“What about me? What about our friendship? Why don’t you fight for it?” SungYeol demanded.

“Because he’s my priority!”

“What am I?”

“Not my priority! You are just some mist—”

“WooHyun!” SungGyu yelled, interrupting the other main vocal.

SungYeol and WooHyun looked up to find SungGyu hovering over them.

“WooHyun, go,” SungGyu ordered. “SungYeol and I need to talk.”

WooHyun stood up. “I was just—”

“Just go,” SungGyu commanded as he sat down beside SungYeol on the curb. “You can’t make this better. Go.”

“He…” WooHyun paused, feeling nervous about what SungGyu might accidentally give away. “He knows about my crush on you.”

“Go,” SungGyu repeated.

SungYeol scoffed. “I thought you said it was love?”

“Shut up,” WooHyun barked at SungYeol.

“Go,” SungGyu repeated again.

WooHyun started backing away, but he kept his eyes on them. “I am leaving.”

SungGyu sat quietly beside SungYeol until WooHyun was out of hearing range. “You two are anything but mature.”

“Me?”

“Yes,” SungGyu answered. “It’s ridiculous how you act around each other for all to see.”

SungYeol clasped his hands in front of him. “It’s his fault! He’s the one that led me on while he was pining away for you.”

SungGyu turned to look critically at SungYeol. “If memory serves me correctly, you once told me he never encouraged you.”

The taller man frowned. “Not purposely...”

“Then what is your problem?”

SungYeol unclasped his hands and held them up in his defense. “My problem is with him pining away for you! You will never return his feelings, and here I am dying for some of his attention.”

“How do you know I won’t return his feelings?”

SungYeol’s eyes widened and his mouth dropped open, not expecting the question posed to him.

The leader just shook his head and explained, “WooHyun means a lot to me…more than a lot…he is my dearest friend. When he acted like he hated me…it hurt. It hurt a lot. I don’t ever want to go back to those times.”

SungYeol leaned in and whispered, even though nobody was near them, “Are...you…bisexual…but you can’t be. You like girls. You really like girls.”

“I do like girls,” SungGyu concurred.

“But…”

“But I am very fond of WooHyun. I have never been attached to any girlfriend like I am attached to him. If I was on a sinking ship with WooHyun and Brandy and I could only save one of them…I’d save WooHyun.”

“Well, duh,” SungYeol responded. “Saving WooHyun would be best for the group.”

SungGyu smiled. “True.”

“See, it’s just normal friendship…you don’t like him…like that.”

“I might be curious.”

“Really?” SungYeol asked, unable to hide his smile. He understood curiosity well.

“Maybe.”

“I know the feeling.”

“I mean, you really sold me on all his finer attributes; to hear you tell it, he’d be very skilled.”

SungYeol flung his hands up to the sides of his face and gasped out, “You didn’t tell him!”

SungGyu smiled innocently. “Tell him what?”

“What I said about him being…being…”

“That you think he would be a great lover,” SungGyu finished.

SungYeol turned red. “You didn’t!”

The older man leaned back, bracing himself on his elbows. “Hell no.”

“Thank God.”

“His head would be as big as Hoya’s then.”

SungYeol laughed. “We can’t have that.”

“Nope.”

SungYeol gazed at his leader and asked, “Are you really curious? Or are you just afraid of losing him again?”

SungGyu shrugged. “That is what I keep asking myself. I think I’m more confused than anything.”

SungYeol leaned back, matching SungGyu’s position; their legs were stretched out in front of them on the street. “Confused?”

“He loves me a lot; I don’t doubt that.”

The taller man sighed. “Yeah, I shouldn’t have said crush.”

“Hey, you are supposed to be so smart, so why didn’t you notice how he felt?”

“Me? What about you? Aren’t you the genius?”

“I think my fondness for him…allows him to fool me,” SungGyu admitted. “He’s very good at manipulating me…too good.”

“Not just you. He’s skilled at manipulating everybody.”

“He’s a sneaky little bastard.”

“Once I stopped being stupid, his feelings were so freaking obvious,” SungYeol elaborated. “I felt like such a fool. How could I not see what he was doing?”

“I know the feeling.”

“I bet you do.”

“Boy, do I know it.”

SungYeol asked curiously, “How did you find out?”

“He confessed the day I went to the hospital…it took me awhile to remember,” SungGyu answered honestly.

“He said the two of you fought.”

“That is an understatement. It feels like I have been fighting with WooHyun for so long.”

“But you are not fighting now?”

SungGyu inhaled a deep breath and exhaled it before answering, “SungYeol, I am lazy. He just wore me down. I am too lazy to keep fighting with him. It takes too much out of me.”

SungYeol snorted. “Being lazy is a far cry from being attracted to him.”

“It’s nice to be loved though,” SungGyu explained. “WooHyun…WooHyun knows everything about me. He knows the bad and the ugly and he still loves me. There is something very comforting in that.”

“But attraction…”

“That is the confusing part,” SungGyu explained. “I am not sure about it. I know I am fond of him. I know I would…I would do anything to keep him with me and the group.”

“Fond of him?”

“Yes, fond.”

“Not love?”

SungGyu turned his head to meet SungYeol’s gaze and repeated, “Fond.”

“Have you ever been in love?”

“No.”

SungYeol blinked. “You would do anything to keep him with you…you are contemplating homosexuality for him…you must be really fooonnnd of him.”

“I must be.”

“You know he would eventually want sex. He’s very sexual.”

“Let’s not talk about that.”

SungYeol ignored SungGyu’s request to point out, “He doesn’t bottom. I have asked him.”

SungGyu sat up straight, pulled his legs up close to his body and wrapped his arms around them. “He doesn’t?”

“No,” SungYeol answered. “He made it very clear. Honestly, it was the only drawback I saw to being with him.”

“Bottoming is bad, right?” SungGyu asked, avoiding SungYeol’s gaze.

“It is for someone like you…everybody says it is the submissive position. I joked with him once that you two would never work out because you’d never bottom for him,” SungYeol stated, remembering the past conversation. “Damn, it’s like I had him figured out and didn’t even know it.”

SungGyu cringed, wondering what SungYeol would think if he knew that his leader had not only bottomed but he had allowed WooHyun to tie him up. “Maybe our love could be platonic.”

“You are cringing at the thought of having sex with him,” SungYeol told him, misunderstanding the older man reaction. “You are not gay.”

“How can you be sure…when I am not?”

“I am sure.”

“I’m not…”

“You are just confused, like you said.”

“Maybe; I am confused, but I need time to figure out what I am feeling.”

“Believe me, it is just confusion.”

“You might be right.”

“You just like that he loves you so much…maybe you just need a dog.”

SungGyu blinked. “A dog?”

“A dog will love you unconditionally too and it won’t want sex.”

“I’d hope not.”

“You need a dog.”

“I don’t really like dogs.”

“That is just a lie you once told for the sake of a variety show. You like dogs.”

“Maybe a little…”

“You are confused, so don’t do something that will only make things worse.”

“I need time to think this all over.”

“Okay.”

“And I need you to stop riling WooHyun up.”

SungYeol frowned. “Why?”

“What you feel for WooHyun is just a fraction of what he feels for me. Have some compassion for your group member.”

“Err…”

“I am being serious. WooHyun loves you like a brother; he is not going to show you the wonders of gay sex.”

SungYeol shrank back away from the other man. “It sounds so bad when you say it like that…don’t be so blunt.”

SungGyu looked sternly at SungYeol. “I am not going to sugar coat the truth.”

“No, you wouldn’t.”

“If you keep pressuring WooHyun he will just fight back. He fights dirty and he won’t spare your feelings. He can be mean.”

“True.”

“It isn’t worth your friendship.”

“What about you and WooHyun? What about your brotherhood and your friendship?” SungYeol asked.

SungGyu turned his gaze to the anxious looking WooHyun, who was watching them in the near distance. “Our friendship remains intact, but our brotherhood…I don’t think he ever thought of me as a brother. He’s says his feelings started long ago.”

“But you felt brotherhood for him.”

“I am not sure what I felt or feel towards him,” SungGyu admitted. “I never had a real brother to compare the feeling to, but when I think of the rest of you I always think of you as my brothers, though. With him it is different. I just know he is important, more important than anyone else. And sometimes that really pisses me off.”

“Why?”

“Because he knows it.”

SungYeol couldn’t help but smile. “I will leave WooHyun alone until you decide what you want to do about him.”

The older man reached out his hand. “Let’s shake on it.”

“Okay,” SungYeol said as he grasped SungGyu’s hand. “Please, really take the time to think about what you want.”

“I will.”

“You are confused…just confused,” SungYeol warned.

SungGyu sighed. “You are probably right.”

SungYeol looked worried as he told the leader, “Once you act…you can’t take it back.”

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“Dude,” DongWoo shouted in WooHyun’s ear, causing the main vocal to jump.

WooHyun, who had been focused on SungGyu and SungYeol, turned around to face the rapper and shouted back at him, “What!”

“What is your problem?”

“I don’t have a problem.”

“You act like you’re about to have a stroke.”

“I am just…what are they talking about!” WooHyun demanded, pointing at SungYeol and SungGyu, who were shaking hands.

DongWoo shrugged. “Anything they want to talk about.”

WooHyun sighed, knowing DongWoo didn’t understand. “They seemed to be in an intense discussion.”

“They are probably talking about SungYeol’s hots for you.”

“Whhaaat?”

“Our brave leader is probably trying to talk some sense into him.”

“What the hell are you talking about?”

DongWoo winked at WooHyun. “Don’t act like you don’t know.”

“I know…I didn’t know you knew.”

“Yep, I know…me and Hoya.”

“Hoya, too!”

DongWoo nodded his head. “Hoya was the first one that noticed. He thought you two were screwing.”

“We didn’t…and we aren’t, ever!

“Good,” DongWoo replied, relieved. “I didn’t know if SungGyu ever brought up the topic with you or not.”

WooHyun shook his head. “No, not really…a little but we both agreed it’s a bad idea. I didn’t know Hoya was the one who originally noticed.”

“He was.”

“I was really clueless back then.”

“Yeah, we knew we couldn’t approach you, so SungGyu decided it would be best to broach the subject with SungYeol.”

“He does have his brighter moments.”

“Especially considering you would have probably had sex with SungYeol to spite him back then.”

“To spite him…”

“You would have done anything back then to piss SungGyu off.”

“True,” WooHyun conceded, but carefully added to test what DongWoo knew, “But why would it have pissed him off?”

“Because you don’t like SungYeol like that,” DongWoo pointed out. “You would have just ended up hurting him. Have I mentioned how glad I am that you are back to your normal self?”

“No.”

“Well, I am,” DongWoo told him, running his hand through his hair. “You were causing me to go gray.”

WooHyun smiled at DongWoo, while he kept an eye on SungGyu, who was again lying in the middle of the road, this time beside a sleeping MyungSoo. “How would you know if you were going gray? Your hair is always dyed.”

DongWoo let out a hearty laugh and clapped his hands. “So true.”
  • Current Mood: Sneaky
  • Current Music: What You Want by SungGyu...opps I mean Kanto
Ooh, I feel so appreciated! :D

Nice to see they're working through their problems. Woohyun with his proclaimations of love seems to be wearing SungGyu down a bit, huh? He's curious, just like Woohyun said he would be. I'm glad they're talkling to SungYeol too, I was worried he'd be upset and do something drastic! SungYeol is funny trying to keep SungGyu away from Woohyun. Like this line:

“You need a dog.”

HAHA!

Thanks for the update!^^
When I saw that you updated this early to commenters as an appreciation post, my heart burst into hearts and fluffies <3<3 You're the sweetest, and I want to hug you forever and ever~ Thank you so much, it really makes my day ^_^

So, Sungyeol and Sunggyu finally talk! I'm glad that Sunggyu doesn't totally dismiss the fact of him not returning Woohyun's feelings, it really shows the change. Before Sunggyu would've acted as straight as a pencil, but now after everything that has happened, he's not afraid to admit that he's confused. I love how he describes his and Woohyun's friendship, it is so deep and meaningful, and Sunggyu makes it clear that this bond with Woohyun is something else entirely that he has never experienced before. He's never felt such a bond with anyone else, and gosh, that's so special <3 and gah, even I don't know what to call this now. it's not romantic love yet nor is it brotherly love nor is it platonic love and wow this is so amazing asdfghj.
Um anyways! In a way I feel like that talk Sunggyu had with Sungyeol did him good. As always, I am curious to find out what happens next, I look forward to seeing Sunggyu's change and seeing what he does about it! This fic seems to center all around Sunggyu's change, and my goodness you write it so well with such intricacy yet simple dialogue. I really, really love this fic <3 thank you!
Thank you for the early update! It was such a pleasant surprise ^^

I just loved the conversation between Sungyeol and Sunggyu, and maybe it put things slightly into perspective for him...although Sunggyu has already acted so is there no going back? >_<

Oh Woohyun >_< you could see the genuine love in is words when he was talking to Sunggyu. It was so sweet :)
gosh, namwoo is so annoying. really. i feel you grandpagyu. his jealousy is beyond control and i found myself wanting to choke him so bad these days. seriously it's not cute anymore. urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! but if i did, grandpagyu (as annoyed he can be with namwoo being jealous freak) might kill me so that choking thing is NO-Can't-DO. EVER. gahhhhhhhhhhhhhh~ now i'm annoyed with grandpagyu too, i want to slap the back of his head so hard for being too contemplative!!! but at least grandpagyu is good at damage control; him talking heart to heart with sungyeol is somewhat admirable - putting some senses to angry sungyeol is hard to happen. i guess that's why he's the leader. he make it it happened.

p/s: so hoya is not dense after all huh? good for him :-)


Edited at 2013-10-27 06:26 pm (UTC)
ok. yeol is settled for now. and i think his curiosity will fade.
gyu. well namu is doing great _not_ pushing him.
Hell it's like gyu is on the edge of a cliff and namu is at his back, smile like a crazy psychotic! but, ok, everyone know that gyu is stupid when it comes to namu. even gyu knows... so well it's like gyu himself is asking to be pushed!
well.. I hope you will make us crazy fan girls fell down in a DEEP RED RATED cliff in the next chapter.
Thanks for the upload!
I'm sooo happy *.*

I loved this chapter *.* WooHyun's confession was beautiful ( and a little bit greasy, that's how we love him XD)

I liked the talking between SungGyu and SungYeol and I especially feel sorry for poor SungYeol feeling so insecure :( and how he tried to convince SungGyu that it's just curiosity

I think it's really good,that SungGyu didn't deny his feeling for WooHyun :D
And of course DongWoo <3

Thank you for this chapter, you're amazing~~~
thank you authornim ^^
i appreciate woohyun's character everytime he explains himself
i understand his love and it hurts
Smart Sungyeol really figured it out by himself. Way to go! XD I'm just sad that his feelings for Woohyun won't be returned. Because I believe that his feelings for Woohyun ran deeper than a crush and a desire for experimentation. There are other guys for that. But he's fixated on Woohyun.

Wow I'm on the appreciation list! Thank you!

Yay~~ an update!! I was as work when i checked my livejournal! I was so anxious to read this chapter!!
I really hope sungkyu can sort everything out~
I feel like his conversation with sungyeol helped~!
Thanks for the early update :) thanks for the appreciation <3
I LOVED this chapter and i so need to read this again when i commented.
I loved Woogyu's conversation then i was mad why Sunggyu was more honest, well in some ways, with SungYeol than with Woohyun.
I kinda feel like Sunggyu totally wants Woohyun... i mean if Sungyeol knew that he did enjoy the sex with Woohyun he never had doubts, had he?
Now i wont have any sleep cuz i will wondering that all nite long ;)
I was expectng the Sungyeol situation totally different like he would be more mad or out them (ok he still can do that) or something like that. But i liked how you wrote it Woogyu dont need too many complications :P
I think i told you i love that you call Sunggyu Perfect Gyu im sure i dont see everything why you think he is perfect but i see he is awesome and i like him a lot <333
And i like Woohyun too i mean his voice OMG its perfect. Sunggyu's comes really near but lets not talk about the others rn, i dont want the spoil my moment of amazment lol
And i love them as a couple, i can see its not just fs. If im into a ship and like to read the fics its usually more than fs. Well i have nothing againts a hot ship and some nice smut but i cant fall for the fluff if i dont think there is something more.
Thanks for the update again. You are really a talented writer. <333

Edited at 2013-10-26 06:00 pm (UTC)
owh commentors only, makes me feel special. hahah. Thanks for the appreciation.

We are finally out of the denial. And it's just nice. Not so-over-the-top since gyu is not coming out blatantly saying 'now that we'd slept together i realized i love him wholeheartedly'.

The mile high club makes me think of a BOR's scene that was in one of gyu's dream. Them and flights. DId you think of that too?


Edited at 2013-10-27 03:15 am (UTC)
Wow! That was cool. I thought the talk with Sungyeol was just going to progress steadily downhill! But Sunggyu saved that one.
It is amazing to watch both him and Woohyun skirt around the truth of what really happened between them when they talk to other people. Kind of letting them think what they want to. Poor Sungyeol. He will be okay though, right? Once Sunggyu spoke to him he seemed to settle pretty nicely.
It is Woohyun as always that makes me laugh. He is sooooooo obvious I wonder how the rest of them haven't seen it yet!?! But I love watching Sunggyu make up his mind, and realizing how he needs to give up some control to be happy. Apparently, Woohyun will be the one to take care of him. He can trust that much!
Hahaha sungyeol's got a good point
Sunggyu really must be fooooonnnddd of woohyun
But I understand; It takes time to sort out feelings sometimes, it can be frustratingly chaotic that you're unable to sift through the obvious truths of how you actually feel. Time is what he needs.

Thank you for the update!! :):)
And again! A nice talk betweet WooGyu.
I really love that they decided to be honest with each other. I like their talks about their feelings and I love how Sunggyu always tells Woohyun to leave if he's being to honest with Gyu.
Like Gyu said to Sungyeol. He likes to be loved, but he really don't know if it's love from his side.
It's good that they both talked with Sungyeol and I'm glad that Sunggyu disturbed Woohyun and Sungyeol. Woohyun would have made Sunyeols reaction worse though. But I like how understandig Sungyeol is. It's really nice from him x3
I'm just happy how everything is turning slowly to good~
I'm really happy that Sunggyu talked it out with Sungyeol, since things have sort of calmed down in the story I'm so scared that all hell's gonna break loose all of a sudden, haha. Sunggyu is so confused, I'm not sure if he needs more thinking time or less of it. Keeping my fingers crossed for more development between Gyu and Woohyun in the next chapter, can't wait! I always look forward to your updates, thanks for sharing!
I spent most of the week reading Bed of Roses since I hadn't read that one yet. Now I come back and you updated this one and I think I've just confused myself more with infinite. Still trying to learn who's who. But I absolutely love your writing and was stupid to gloss over these two fics just cause I didn't know the band very well.
This is so good. I feel bad for Woohyun but I also think he's being a total dick to SungYeol. He should be a little more sympathetic to his plight considering he is in the somewhat same position.
Woohyun constantly proclaiming his love for Sunggyu seems to be making Sunggyu more vulnerable in a way? I'm glad he talked it out with Sungyeol. Nice to see that Sunggyu actually considers the option of him actually having feelings for Woohyun.
spot! and sorry for not filling up mine last chapter, I forgot to lol XD
brb, reading!
omg thank you for this awesome chapter!
I cannot stop laughing!!!!
and I want to quote everything, but I'll end quoting like most of things lol!!!!

and after thinking again and again, I decided this is my most favorite part... *I had a hard time, really*
“That’s not fair. I never proclaimed to feel anything but friendship for him.”

“But you smiled at him.”

“I smile a lot.”

“Your smile is dangerous.”

“I never smiled at him like I smile at you.”


thaaaaank yooou *hugs*
(I am so very sorry for leaving my spot empty again UGH ;__; School is wearing me out ;___;)

I KNEW IT. Sunggyu will end up thinking about Woohyun after that night. YES. /shot Okay it was nice seeing them on talking/bickering stage again, I missed this. And I like the fact that Woohyun will wait for Sunggyu to come to him when he's actually ready. AW GUISE. ;__;

Woohyun's love for Sunggyu is definitely real, in every essence of the word. I mean his declarations of love is just...wow. It's very difficult to find a person who loves anything and everything about you; flaws and imperfections included. I just hope that Sunggyu realizes this soon before everything falls out of hand again O_o

Also someone give Sungyeol a cookie because SNARKY SNARKY GENIUS. /shot

“Have you ever been in love?”

“No.”

SungYeol blinked. “You would do anything to keep him with you…you are contemplating homosexuality for him…you must be really fooonnnd of him.”

^SUNGYEOL LET ME JUST...../hugs/

“What you feel for WooHyun is just a fraction of what he feels for me. Have some compassion for your group member.”

^DO I SEE A SMALL CONFESSION THERE (yes? no? maybe? :x)

Thank you thank you thank you so much for this update! ♥

(PS. WHAT WHAT WHAT YOU WANT BABY ♪ /shot Woollim make him sing songs like this more often please ;_;)
Thanx for the early update!

Woohyun can be so freaking confusing (and childish) when he wants to... I kinda liked his conversation with Gyu in the plane though, he was being a lot less annoying than usual and actually pleasant (until he messed up again). Can't say the same about his talk with Yeol, he can mean, we all saw than before. And definitely loved the Gyuyeol talk, it felt reassuring somehow.

All in all, grear chapter as always~
Thank U for the prompt update. Always waiting for the next chapter of yours. WooGyu is a couple made in heaven. Thank U for writing about them. I love the way they talk to each other in this chapter, they are so open, finally sharing their true feelings with each other. And Gyu's talk to Sungyeol was an honest one, he showed his leader side. I wonder what would Woohyun do if he'd heard this talk....and I wonder when Gyu will make his step toward Woohyun:)))